Time has shown me that my existence doesn’t matter

That I am nothing but a singular pepper speck in a sea of salt

That I am meaningless, worthless, and often irrational 

That I am just an angry Black girl filled with emotions that I’m not allowed to have 

That maybe, just maybe, life would be better without me in it 

That my life holds no significance and holds no weight here on this earth 

So now I just wait 

Waiting for the time when this will be over 

Praying for the time where I can finally rest